Genap sudah sebulan aku berhenti kerja. Genap sebulan dah aku mereput.
Basically, I am jobless right now. Yes, menganggur. Do I like it? Not much, really. I'm bored. At home, I did very little chores only. Like, everyday my must-done task is cook whatever I want to cook and cook nasi, basuh pinggan, susun pinggan, basuh baju, lipat baju, siram pokok. The rest of the day, I just lepak depan tv tengok movie, lepak depan laptop tengok movie dan baring atas katil tengok Youtube, Instagram dan Facebook. Everyday I wait for the time to pass. It's boring. I'm bored to death and I don't even have gaji anymore, so that sucks. I'm jobless and broke.
So, anyway. I've been looking for jobs, alright. But still havent applied any. God, I am so picky. You see, if you love your job, you wont feel like working for the rest of your working life, you know. I believe I want that. I want to be able to love my job and wake up everyday, looking forward to do the thing that I love doing. I do not live to please people. I aint nobody's kuli. I hate take orders from anyone. From here, you can see that I'm quite an individualistic. Of course, I am. I really am. I'm not saying that I hate people. I just, I don't know. I guess I do hate people a little.
Yeah, whatever. What I'm saying is I'm 21 and people expect me to act like an adult. Like, that even possible? I admit I'm still a rebellious rock-headed teenager inside. Despite that, I really would love to earn my own money. I know I'm a determined person. I just, I don't like being ordered to do this and that. I hate bosses, actually. Grrr, I'm such a confused girl. I feel lifeless now that I'm mereput here at home. I just wish I could get into university asap or just get a job asap. You know, dalam banyak banyak tahun, I gotta say that 2016 is just my least favourite.
Despite that, I still hope I'll get a job that suits me and my soul best. And I hope I'll get better mentally and emotionally. Amin.
