Wednesday, February 27, 2019

I ditched my job again

Hello, there!

So, it's been about a week since I left my old job. Well,  more like ditched. God, I still couldn't believe I quit yet another job in my life. That was my 7th job, y'know? I've quit 7 jobs now, and I started working at the age of 21. I am 24 now. D'you know how many times I've been jobless? Yes, 7! So, anyway, what I have been doing for the last week was housekeeping. I basically do the laundry, take out the trash, sweeping, folding clothes, cooking and feeding my cats. Oh, and also I did a lot of TV watching and I'm on Instagram and YouTube oftentimes.

So, I am thirsty right now, but it's already really late at  night, hours passed midnight, to be specific. So, there is no way I'm going downstairs to get my water bottle. I'll just wait after Subuh. Tonight I watched 2 whole movies and I loved them! I re-watched The Cheetah Girls 2 and I watched The Incredible Jessica James which was so interesting that I wished it would last longer. But, anyhow it's fine.

So, about gettin' a new job. Well, I'm a bit clueless of what I want to do with my life. I want a job, but I'm afraid I'd quit again and I'm bored of quitting. I want to indulge myself in a new life, new perspective, y'know? I want a steady job, at least one that I'd last for a year. At least a year. I'm totally out of money right now. I don't know whether I should work in Kajang/KL or Melaka. I don't know. I mean, I have to go to eye appointments every now and then at Hospital Melaka, and get my eyedrops at Klinik Kesihatan every month. So, I feel like I should work in Melaka, so it'd be easier for me to access my eye health checkup. But, then again, it wouldn't be such a hassle or such a bad idea if I work in Kajang/KL and have some time-offs once in a while to go to Melaka for my eye stuff. But, then again, that'd be a troublesome.

Y'know what? I really want to work in Melaka, because my hospital is there, my clinic is there. It'd be easier for me to go there, because it's near. Plus, Melaka house is like a real home to me. I mean, I grew up in Kajang, but now that it has been left for years, it doesn't seem like a home anymore, it doesn't feel like anymore. My mom's retiring soon, so actually I'd like to accompany her by living in Melaka. Plus, groceries would be free if I live there. Well, most of all, I actually would like to have a life in Melaka. I'm not sayin' I wanted to get married to a Malaccan and build a family there. I'm just sayin' I want to live there, work there, basically live there.

All in all, I don't want to leave my mother alone and my father as well. I don't want to be that daughter who gets married and lives with her husband somewhere far and rarely comes back home to see her parents. I want to be that daughter who lives nearby to be able to watch over her parents every now and then. But, before I could do that, I'd have to have a job.

I wish I'd get a job in Melaka. Amin.