Hello there.
I'm not going to be writing much today, as I've became super lazy these couple of months that I've gained 13 kg. Since March I've been at home. Online classes started from March, ended in late June 2020, but to some, up until July because of exams and stuff. I've finished classes, assignments and everything on the very last day of June, or 29th, but never touched July 'cause I was determined to settle everything before July arrives. Frankly speaking, I don't like online classes. But, there's not much option. So, we went with it.
So, I've gained 13 kg. I've become less motivated in life. I'm broke. All I feel right now is I just wanna sleep and wake up and eat, and sleep again. I have no interest in spending money whatsoever 'cause I ain't got nothin' to spend. I also felt fat and lazy. I am a walking pillow, and I always want to lay down. My semester break's gon' end soon, in September and I'll be starting my 2nd year in October 2020, inshaAllah. I really want to lose all 13 kg I've gained, so I'd look like I was in the beginning of March, before PKP started. I not only look fatter, I also feel lazier and unmotivated. I've become particularly stressed about eating 'cause I'm always confused about what to eat to make me feel happy and satisfied, ended up I eat a lot of whatevers in my house and still not feel satisfied. I remember the last couple of weeks, I ate spaghetti bolognese a lot of times, that's when I felt happiest 'cause I was satisfied. But then, I wouldn't want to eat spaghetti everyday of every week. I get bored easily.
I plan all sorts of things to keep me from eating too much, but I always still eat much. I lost interest in going out because I got lazy to drive. I became less interested to be touched by sunlight and I especially lost interest in sitting and driving 'cause I'd a million times rather lay down on my bed or on the floor and do nothing. It's terrible. I'm terrible. I do chores very minimally thanks to my extra fat, I've become lazier. I feel terrible. These days, when I wake up, I can't wait to go back to sleep again.
