Hi yall. Wait, is there anybody there, actually?
I've always thought I've never had readers coming to my blog. Now that it's 2020, I doubt that many people use bloggers no more. Well, no offends blogger. It's the truth! I think if people likes to read, they still go to blogs or to bloggers that they like, to know how their lives are going and stuff. Waaait, what am I babbling at 2AM today? God, I'm half sleepy, half awake. I spent like an hour watching PewDiePie's videos tonight and more related to AmongUs videos, particularly about CORPSE. Jyeaaah, you know who the freakin' CORPSE is right?! Damn. That voice. Ovaries exploded. Period.
Wait, what's my point in this post? So, new semester has started. My English had gotten worse, I've no idea how it went to that point. So, I started reading again and looking up to dictionary again. God, if you don't use the language much regularly anymore, you could literally lose it, right? We gotta speak and read MORE ENGLISH please, people!! And by people, I mean, me! Anyway!! The point, Aisyah! What is the freakin' point?!
I've been in the clouds for almost 2 weeks now. You know what I'm talking about? Being in the clouds. It feels like we're high up there and feeling so deep in here. High up in the clouds, thinking and deep inside our soul, feeling. I've been losing myself lately. I do assignments, but not as focused anymore. I know I could become focused again. But, somehow something is holding me back. I know I can focus, but I get distracted by the feeling of somewhat loneliness. Damn. I don't want nobody, no. But, I am not motivated. I need someone to back me up, lift me up. Your girl can do it, she knows she can, but she's high up there now. C'mon help her, will ya?! Anyone?
I don't know if this just a phase. I got assignments lining up. And you know when I do assignments, I spend long hours and days and days doing it. But lately, I've been thinking so much about the outside world, about the wonders of love and how it'd be amazing to be with someone, or to be lonely together, you know? We don't necessarily need to be together, we could just acknowledge that we need each other so we don't feel as lonely. I'm listening to Troye Sivan as I'm writing this. What a feel! He's such a vibe. His songs and lyrics are just what EUPHORIA feels like. And that's what I want. What I long for, now. That's my distraction to my focus. I don't know how to fix it. Get a guy? Get any guy? No, it doesn't work that way. Love comes on its own. But, nevertheless, I know what I need. And the universe knows what I need. I hope love will find its way to me. Amin!